11:00 closes in quietly if not stoically .I am hurting tremendousy and I know Syd is still upset at me .I am frustrated as hell and don't know what to do with it. I have nothing to say that doesn't seem to make things worse and she csll me passive aggresive.I am torn up and she comes off about how she would she I dunno we just seem to keep moving from crisis to crisis.Nothing seems to be good enough and I don't understand it does she think those comments don't cut and cause more problems or embarassing me in public that burns.If I bring it up I will be wrong from jump. At least I got some good practice in today.