2:09 A.M. I am in terrible pain.I am listening to the new Bad religion album.I guess it really better if I just let Cindy sleep and I know now that even not agreeing with her can cause catastrophic series of shitty behavior.It has also come to light that she doesn't fell appeciated I have gotten an ass chewing and told i was a martyr and I don't knoif this bodes whats in store for december I do not think i can handle it because she has gotten unreasonable at times and then gets upset at my reactions which I am not aware of .I am a little nervous.I know she is capable of violence and I can tell she is resentful of the fact that I stil have